What’s on my mind part 1

Had a bad headache when i woke up this morning.
I don’t know what happened but absolutely i’m sick!
I think it’s a migraine but it’s hard to tell anymore, it may actually be a sinus headache.
Last night was the worst.
This morning I was trying to get it together, but after having thrown up all last night I was pretty weak.
So I called out of work, forgetting that we have off on Monday, so now I have to get a doctor’s note for missing today. Argh.
Now I have to haul myself over to the clinic…lazy.lazy.

I don’t know what’s on my mind why I created this blogs where I can express my feelings and my thoughts.
If I could somehow confine it to a few hundred topics I might be able to manage a reasonable answer to that question.
What should I say because it will kill me not to speak my mind. I just dont want to say something I may end up regretting.
While I’ve been writing this blog I’ve made many friends who have followed along and encouraged me.
I thank all of you. It’s been your kind words and thoughts that have brightened my day and helped me carry on.

Thanks…

the birthday of my life

“If there’s something that you’re dreaming of then may it all come true, because you deserve it all…HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME.”

Inside every older person is a younger person – wondering what the hell happened.

Pain. Hurt. Heartache.

Me: Its hurt…i cant stand anymore.

Friend A: I dh cakap dia tak puas ati. Melepaskan perasaan la tu. Darling, must put it ur mind dat his word can’t hurt u. If u do what he said pun apa salahnye? U tak kacau dia.

Friend B: Believe me, no point u jawap pun. What’s d effect? Make u feel better? Jap je tu.. Nanti dia retaliate, u sakit hati. Better jgn pk sangat.

Friend C: A’ah… Dun be so sad darling… look at u..u look so sick. lagi sedih kitaorg tgk u macamnie. My dear i wuld advise u to continue wit ur life n 4get about it. I know ist’s hard to do that…(hug)

Friend B: well it seem like u really love him…i went through a similar situation. i know it hurts a lot…but you got to move ahead though it’s very difficult i kno.

Me: i am so sad like i am going to cry…(crying n coughing)

Tears of Love

Friend C: I am sorry that this happened to you…

Friend A : If u think about ur future yes. Personally, think u need someone who a strong caring hands.

Friend B: 2 me u better get it over n done with. lagi lama lagi sakit hati.

Friend C: Takes 2 4 relation 2 work. Cant blame if along d way dont work out.

Friend A: U need sumone 2 care 4 u. If the relationship dh jadi like dis tak payah la. Not askin u to be selfish. I kno u will cry but only for a while.

Friend C: Up to u babe. Time off.

Friend B: hope you feel better … that’s all i can really say. just keep your head up…

Friend A: Babe, there are few things in life that are harder on a person than the time when they realize that the love they have worked so hard at, and spent so much time on, is finally over…. think about it.

Me: I cant handle a relation that……I don’t…

Friend A,B,C: Don’t ape?????

Me: Crying…

Fcuk YOU

Conflict: It’s Part Of Everyone’s Life

Sometimes, You Just Have to Vent!