Whats love got to do got to do with it

7 11 2007
Whats love got to do got to do with it
Whats love but a second emotion
Whats love got to do got to do with it
Who needs a heart when a heart can be broken




heart

27 10 2007

Its hard to tell your mind to stop loving someone if your heart still does……





I don’y know what went wrong…

1 10 2007

Just get ready for a new chapter in life…..





Sometimes

29 09 2007

Sometimes the heart sees what the eyes can’t.
Self-expression must pass into communication for its fulfillment….
Sometimes, it is the words left unspoken, that hurt the most….






jiwa kacau.

29 07 2007
Later that day I got to thinking about relationships. There are those that open you up to something new and exotic, those that are old and familiar, those that bring up lots of questions, those that bring you somewhere unexpected, those that bring you far from where you started, and those that bring you back. But the most exciting, challenging and significant relationship of all is the one you have with yourself. And if you can find someone to love the you you love, well, that’s just fabulous.





Heart murmur???

25 07 2007

I know who you are. I love you. I love everything about you that hurts.
No one will ever love you as much as I do. Why isn’t love enough?
Love bores you. (me)
No, it disappoints me.(him)
(me) I hate that I’m hurting you.
(him) Then why are you?
(me) But we’re happy… Aren’t we?

blur blur blur//





But we only need one thing……

20 07 2007

Dear xnenjax,

The best love is the kind that awakens the soul; that makes us reach for more, that plants the fire in our hearts and brings peace to our minds. That’s what I hope to give you forever.

Do you think our love can make miracles?





rulebook for intimacy

30 06 2007
I wish there were a rulebook for intimacy. Some kind of guide to tell you when you’ve crossed the line. It would be nice if you could see it coming, and I don’t know how you fit it on a map. You take it where you can get it, and keep it as long as you can. And as for rules, maybe there are none. Maybe the rules of intimacy are something you have to define for yourself.




sorry.

21 05 2007
I just want to say sorry if I hurt your feelings … I just want you to know that I’m thankful that you came into my life and I will love you for the rest of my life.
I know sorry is just a word, but for what it’s worth I am very sorry for hurting u then.
I am sorry that I did not understand or didn’t even try to understand the way you felt. Now that I’ve pushed you away, I miss talking and laughing with you, but I am too embarrassed to even call and speak with you. I can never forgive myself for being this way.

Please forgive me for all the hurt that I have caused you in the past.





Describing True Feelings

18 04 2007
Undying? Fading?

People, who have been hurt in a relationship, often wonder how someone they love could treat them so poorly.

I think that most callous behavior is driven by one of two explanations.

To begin with, some people are just naturally more selfish and self-centered. Some people have little empathy or respect for another person’s feelings… it’s all about what they want. Such individuals are often very manipulative and underhanded when it comes to love and romance.

Some believe that romance should just come naturally, and if it doesn’t, or if the original closeness that existed in a relationship starts to subside, it means that something is wrong. Nothing is further from the truth. Keeping love alive requires time, attention and the willingness to keep things fresh and learn how to constantly reconnect.

My love has been fading ever so slightly lately. As he mentioned lah.
Do you think our love is gone???This cant be true..because, i had fell in love wif you like hell for past 7 months.
Dear…Mr. Nenja, FYI a security of our love never fading. Never and never. I know you’ll find it hard to believe me if I tell you now how much you mean to me. Dear…Mr. Nenja, thank you for coming into my life. You are something I never thought could exist for me. You are one of the best things that has happened in my life, and I don’t regret being with you.

There is so much I want to tell you, a lot has been running through my head lately.
I keep thinking about the future, about life, and what I want out of it. I keep thinking about us and what this relationship means to me. I keep thinking about these things and I realize they go hand in hand. This relationship is my future; it’s what I want out of life. I want to grow old with you. I want to experience this crazy love forever and ever, and I really think I’m going to get to.

I want to have a child with you and go through the experiences of parenthood with you. I want to see you and me chasing our little kid around the house, all three of us laughing our heads off and having fun. I want to hold you when you cry and smile with you when you smile. I want to fall asleep every night with you in my arms. I want you to fall asleep on my chest listening to the beat of my heart and know it beats for you I want you to be the first thing I see when I wake up and the last thing I see when I go to sleep. I want to see your bad morning hair; I think it will be so cute. I want to sit on the beach with you and watch the sun set, and I want all the people who pass us to envy the love that we obviously have for each other.

At first I was confused, didn’t really know what I wanted, I didn’t know if I would want to take a chance again and actually take you seriously. So, I decided to come close to you as a friend and find out who you truly were and what you were like. You seemed cool, nice and funny some things I really liked in a guy. So I took a chance and got with you.

In the beginning, things didn’t seem that well, I actually had my doubts about you. I wasn’t sure you were actually taking me seriously. But, it was too late to look back; I had already fallen for you since the day I met you and I wasn’t really looking forward to giving up too soon. I tried so hard to have you, I wasn’t going to let you go so easily!

Well, time has passed and I have discovered new things and a new me. You have truly changed me. Still, in a way, I’m scared ’cause I am actually growing a true feeling inside my heart which I just cant explain, but I know it’s there waiting for you to come and uncover it. I truly don’t know what your feelings are but I don’t want to force you in telling me what you don’t feel towards me. I would want to receive love and trust from you when you truly mean it. All I ask from you is to show me you care and not hide anything, to also have trust in me the way I do in you.

I just want you to know that I had never found someone I wanted to spend the rest of my life with until I met you.