Thinking too much.

just to make myself stop thinking about….
ergh!
room.
headache.
my fault.
hate tiz.
The right place to stay in peace is..heaven.

Headache. Cry cry and cry…

“Stop thinking and go to sleep Nena!”
U stil have place to go…..
Ur Mr Nenja?
Ur Mom?
Ur friends?

I don’t want to think about that in too much…..

feel shitty

Today out of the blue, i started sneezing and moments later felt like i was about to have a bad cold.
In the morning i woke up at the sound of moaning — my moaning.
My joints were killing me. Everything was aching like hell.
Suddenly I missed him.
Sometimes its hard to understand what guys want.
Sometimes i dont really understand what i want too.
Im so tired/worn out.
I am having super serious monday blue now.
I feel crappy + cranky + shitty = cant concentrate at work.
Lifes in a mess now, i wish things could be simpler.

Saturday Morning.

Saturday morning, I cannot stop thinking about him and dreaming about him.
I sit down in my bed and look out the window, thinking to myself the whole time how much I missed my Nenja.
I just want to go one day without crying.
But I can’t stop. I’m a complete mess right now.
I can’t take this anymore. It’s too much. It’s all too much. I can’t handle it.

Soooo headachy

Everything is uncomfortable.