Aidil Adha is just around the corner.

Ugh.It’s anothr rainy day.It’s raining again n it has been a wet season this few days..
Hari Raya Korban or Aidil Adha is just around the corner.
How time flies….Malaysians will have the last Public Holiday of the year.
NEW YEAR’s EVE and HARI RAYA HAJI is cuming on the same day.
I know each of us has our own unique family traditions when it comes to the holidays.
The family spent hours eating n talking.Family food traditions is the best.
Balek kampung during Hari Raya has always been my family’s tradition every year.
Making our own ketupats is a family tradition and it also helps to heighten the festive mood of Raya.this year hari raya adiladha was totally dull.seriously mundane.not like usual.used to be as great as hari raya adilfitri.
So many things reminded me of Babah.This year, it will be different.

I’ll be away from tomorrow and be back next week.
*wishing everyone Selamat Hari Raya Aidiladha and Selamat Tahun Baru 2007

Connection sucks

Connection sucks here at home…
i had to refresh dont know how many fucking times just to get to blogger or anything.
Thanks to Taiwan’s earthquake.
When will the connections be back to normal?
lags constantly and kicks me off like every 3 minutes.
freakin bored like hell now.

menstruation cramps

It is PMS week!!Last night I had PMS. My body ache. I am tired. I didn’t feel like waking up.
Bloating, Pain and Bad mood. And im suffering for it now.And im oso try to control it.
Sometimes, I feel like the Hulk Hogan when I have PMS.I cant do anything.
Nuthin to prevent em’ only with taking a long hot bath(i preferred do that).
Let the hot shower falling down on my head to toe.I’ve always enjoyed a hot shower.
Took a hot shower made me feel warm and cozy and would always send me off to sleep more quickly.And its also one of my most favorite secret single behavior.
On Sex and the City, Carrie referred to these things as “secret single behavior”.
I have to believe we all have them.
And i oso cravings for chocolate, sweets and salty / fatty foods like potato chips lately.
Why Do I Have Cravings During PMS?….
i hate pms. i hate pms. i hate pms.
i hate pms. i hate pms. i hate pms.
i hate pms. i hate pms. i hate pms.

Married

I was on leave start yesterday.i applied till next yr.wow!!I’ll be back for work on 3rd Jan then.
Holiday season can be a trying time — shopping stress, end of year deadlines maybe.
This will be the longest holiday I ever take, and probably the most tiring too..
I decided to intentionally stay at home..bcuz i hav to. Im not in the gud condition then.
My foot.3 wounds on my tapak kaki.I step on luggage(the luggage locks).As I became more and more awake, the pain grew.I got up to go to the bathroom bcuz it bledding like hell.yuck!
i almost couldnt walk.each step hurt.n tears came out.Then i struggled my way out to find the minyak gamat.
Tday it still hurts.I still put minyak gamat and bcuz of this accident I missed my good friend’s wedding tomorrow.
A friend is getting married. Okay, most people get married. Everyone is getting married.
The more I see people getting married, the more I think about the possibilities of getting married.The more I see the process of getting married, the less I want myself to get married.
It’s interesting to see how the traditions of marriage are having to grow to fit the times: with fewer and fewer couples for whom getting married is synonymous with “leaving home and starting a family of your own” – and particularly in this case, which two retirees exchanging rings – the conventional symbols of marriage (what does “their wedding night” honestly mean any more?) and weddings (what do you buy for a couple who’ve already started their lives in the bigger wider world?) are dying out.

Whom And When Should You Marry?

Romance is fun and love is great, with marriage being the ultimate destination. Is that right? No. After few years, we will call divorce as the ultimate destination. Why is this happening? Two persons seemingly in great love with each other, and looking as if they are made for each other decide to divorce each other after a short time of marriage. Why? Was the selection wrong? Was the timing wrong? Or they did not know about what marriage entails? Let us examine some aspects.

The very first thought before you decide to marry should be – are you getting swept away by romance? Is the romantic feeling so good that you are ignoring every other vital sign? That you are forgetting to consider what you should before marrying? Romantic feelings are intoxicating and like most of the intoxicated persons, lovers many times may not understand what they are doing. It all looks like a fairy tale, but unfortunately the dream of a great married life remains a dream and is never realized. If you are experiencing the heights of romantic feelings, sit back and think about everything the marriage will bring.

The first consideration to think of is do birds of a flock stick together or do opposites attract. In marriage it is the former one. If both the partners react totally differently to any situation, how can one imagine them reaching a common decision and live a life of peace. They may not agree with the home to live in, to begin with. One may be looking for great green spaces and the other may be a great lover of crowded city life. This is not true only of homes, but most of the character traits, that are ignored in romance. But in marriage as every decision needs approval of both, it becomes difficult to live together.

One very important factor to be considered is – is there any quality of your partner that you will hate? Some people are very short-tempered while some cannot bear any anger at all. How can they live happily together? Look for such qualities that you might have ignored in your romance and imagine living with a person with those qualities. If you are sure that you will be able to carry on despite them, do, otherwise think again.

Romance makes us blind to many issues of real life. A marriage is a life, which two persons live together to give joy to each other and create a family that contributes positively to others. If your partner fits into your total scheme of great living together, where he or she may be the first person you will see in the morning, please go ahead, otherwise try to know more and search for better alternatives. The fuel of romance will carry you for the first few months, and as soon as the romance dies away, the realities will surface.

my love life

I’m tired of being me today.
I feel like things are really coming along this week…i feel like i have more passion, more ideas, more desire to actually DO something worth while. It seemed like for so long i didnt mind just coming to the office, doing random things, and then going home. But now i feel like my vision is being more defined, or awakening again maybe. I am feeling depressed without apparent reasons. I guess lots of Scorpios faces this shit. We always seem to love the people that don’t deserve us loving. We always see the things that others never see when we like someone. But yet we are unable to name the things that we like about that someone when asked by people. We are like passionate artist but never been able to paint a good picture at the end. It’s all because of stupid overwhelming feelings. Stupid stupid stupid!

It’s just a sad, sad outlook on my love life – or whatever you want to call it cause there’s not really too much love in it per se. Why can’t it just work out how I want it to?

My love life has a been a bit, um, frustrating lately. Promising yet frustrating due to various factors outside my control. My patience is being tried. And remember – I don’t have any patience!

It’s not that I’m jealous. Ok well maybe I am jealous – but not of her. I’m jealous of him. I’m jealous he’s seemed to have found someone that he wants to be with and in return she wants to be with him. I never really fully understood how hard it is to find that. I mean, it’s not that hard to find someone that I like. It’s a little bit harder to find someone who likes me. But to find a person I like and that likes me back has proved to be near impossible in this past year.