Raya…

Too lazy to update.. tiz year hari raya was quite boring for me…
I’m leaving him here all alone…?
I don’t have the mood to go visiting…?
Why?..I don’t know…
Maybe I’ve been thinking about my dad too much.
i wont be celebrating this raya as happily like the previous years…

Stress and Your Body

Last nite I’m so damn tired I just can’t sleep at all! I dunno why? Maybe it’s cuz the weather is changing! or maybe i’m feeling well? I don’t know what it is… but damnit! I need to go to sleep! I have to get up in 5 hours!Today….I had a stomach ache when I woke up tiz morning. I had tremendous pain in my mid abdomen. It hurt enough that I didn’t get any sleep yestdy…

Most people who blog and or read blogs are the life examining type of people. These people are prone to stress (Playfulindc is top on that list), and I thought it would be a nice moment to reflect on the ways stress can harm you so as to encourage the readers (and the one who wrote this) to take it easy, already.

Emotional and cognitive symptoms of stress include:

Feeling irritable
Feeling frustrated at having to wait for something
Feeling restless
Unable to concentrate
Becoming easily confused
Having memory problems
Thinking about negative things all the time
Negative self-talk
Having marked mood swings
Eating too much
Eating when you are not hungry
Finding it difficult to concentrate
Not having enough energy to get things done
Feeling you can’t cope
Finding it hard to make decisions
Having emotional outbursts
Generally feeling upset
Lack of sense of humor

Physical symptoms of stress include:
Muscle tension
Low back pain
Pains in shoulders or neck
Pains in chest
Stomach/abdominal pain
Muscle spasms or nervous tics
Unexplained rashes or skin irritations
‘Pounding’ or ‘racing’ heart
Sweaty palms
Sweating when not physically active
‘Butterflies’ in stomach
Indigestion and ‘the gurgles’
Diarrhea
Unable to sleep or excessive sleep
Shortness of breath
Holding breath
LACTATION

Oh, I am sorry, did you miss that last one? Did you know that the human body (this includes the guys) can be so stressed that it lactates? (I may or may not be able to provide evidence of this fact, but believe me, the witness is credible.)

not ready for Monday!

The day started early…. I am so not ready for Monday!the weekends go by so quickly…
I don’t know why I can’t make it on time to work! I get up earlier and earlier everyday and still can’t get to work on time! I leave on time and still can’t get there ON TIME! DAMN! And my boss made reference to it during a meeting today.
I feel like I’m getting a cold, my throat is really sore! I’m crossing my fingers it’s just from being tired and that I feel better later on tonight..I haven’t been feeling that great the past few days. I’m not sick just have been feeling mentally and emotionally drained…
Life has it’s ups and downs. We usually see the downs more than the ups. We always try to conquer the downs, but ya know what? Sometimes it’s not meant to conquer the downs. Sometimes you are to swallow your pride, say fuck it, and learn from the downer. THEN, you allow the DOWNER to work it’s way to become an UP in your life! You just gotta beat it! We always want to win, but you can’t win if you do your best to take the easy way out over and over again!

Things Happen For a Reason

I’ll be superhappy one minute and the next I’ll be very sad or angry. For no particular reason my mood will change instantly and I can’t remember why I was so happy or sad. When I’m happy thoughts will race through my head and I’ll be on one thought and then go to complete other one for no reason. It happens at no particular time, and I can’t seem to find an offswitch. I lose focus oneverything except the thought I’m focusing on intensely at the moment.The thoughts I have are vivid, sometimes scary. I’ll have this intense urge to write, and I do. When I go back to read it, what I wrote is complete it makes no sense, its mindless jabber. The worse time is when I can’t decide what mood I’m in, I feel like I’m happy, angry, and sad all at once; which agitates me even more.

Still forgiving…

I hope you find it in your heart to forgive me and let yourself believe in me again and in my love for you. I know I don’t make things easy for you. I get scared of my overwhelming feelings for you and I run, but my heart always brings me back to you. I love you. Forgive me and I will never leave your side again.