My Fave Starbucks Beverages

When the day is hot, Starbucks is cool.

Rhumba Frappuccino®(Blended Coffee)

Starbucks coffee and chocolatey coffee biscuits blended together and topped with whipped cream and chocolate drizzle..Slurpps

Mocha Frappuccino® Blended Coffee A delightfully sweet and creamy combination of coffee, milk and chocolate, blended with ice, topped with whipped cream (optional).

Iced Caffè Mocha Espresso, milk, mocha syrup and ice Rich, full-bodied Starbucks® espresso combined with our proprietary bittersweet mocha syrup, milk and ice. Topped with a cloud of whipped cream.

Double Chocolate Chip Frappuccino® Blended Crème Rich chocolate, chocolate chips and milk blended with ice, topped with whipped cream and chocolate drizzle.

Leo & Scorpio

When Leo and Scorpio join together in a love match, the result is usually a dynamic and intense union. They are well tuned in to one another’s needs; Scorpio demands respect and to be wanted while Leo needs to be adored and complimented constantly. They are both extremely loyal, and often possessive of one another. Both members of this love match are able to give the other what they need and while enjoying one another’s strengths.

Leo relishes comfort and luxury, often doing things on a grand scale. Leo tends to be flamboyant, and Scorpio will appreciate that and will be happy to be the audience Leo requires as long as there is equality in the relationship. Leo shines brighter and more insistently, evolving into the living, breathing manifestation of magnificence and luxury. Scorpio shies away from the limelight but likes to control the mechanics. Because both Signs are so determined, these partners really need to work to understand and accept one another.
Leo is ruled by the Sun while Scorpio is ruled by the Planets Mars and Pluto. The Sun is about ego and self, and it radiates warmth and light. Leo indeed emits this kind of zeal and enthusiasm. Mars is about war, brashness and battle, and Pluto is the influence on Scorpio’s inner dialogue. Ruled by the House of Sex, Pluto influences the idea of regeneration and rebirthing that is a current theme in Scorpio’s life. Together, this abundance of male energy causes Leo and Scorpio to lighten their conflicts and assist one another. The Sun represents life, and Mars and Pluto represent ambition and the unconscious; as long as they take the time to really understand one another on a deep level, their romance is a positive one with high expectations.

Leo is a Fire Sign and Scorpio is a Water Sign. Leo demands the freedom to mingle, while Scorpio has a chameleon personality. Both Signs want to lead, but in different ways, and this common desire could end up causing ripples in an otherwise steady, smooth relationship. Like the Elements that influence them, these two have the ability to cancel one another out. At times, their relationship may not be so harmonious. However, both partners will realize that petty disputes are only a distraction, and as long as they can keep their egos at bay and give the relationship top priority, their conflicts can usually be resolved.

Scorpio and Leo are both Fixed Signs. Both can be rigid, opinionated and resistant to change. They both tend to be persistent when working toward their goals. If they have a plan, they’ll stick to it until they get what they want. They usually share a reluctance to change, preferring a stable and steady road. If they have dissimilar ideas about something, they may end up in a never-ending cycle of struggles. Scorpio won’t budge because to them, it would be a sign of weakness. And Leo may think Scorpio is being too self-righteous. If they understand they’re on the same side in the larger scheme of things, it’s much easier for them to remain productive.

What’s the best aspect of the Leo-Scorpio relationship? It’s their shared sense of dedication to one another and the projects they partake in. Both Signs have very powerful, yet strategically different, personalities. They are seen as a strong pair by others, and their dedication to fulfilling their desires makes theirs a strong love match.

+ Forgotten +

I’m just a dark shadow, no one sees me anymore.. I am just an forgotten soul, know one knows me anymore.. I cut my flesh, to see that I am alive.. But I find it painful, and see that I become more forgotten to this world.. Why are you staring at me like that? Fuck off!! Don’t talk to me… You don’t see me… You don’t know me!!!! No one does!!!

I look back at pictures of the past, pictures that aren’t forgotten.. Pictures that almost died in my own flames of rage.. I see a little girl, with her family, so happy… With that bright like shining at her and her family… She was fucking happy… No worries, everyone knew her.. They loved her, but not me… I’m forgotten, not her…

That little girl… That little girl was me…. Yeah, so I’m goth now… But I’ve found my place now!! So don’t look at me like that!! Don’t you even remember?! Guess not.. I’m forgotten, know one knows me anymore.. Am I a monster? You wanna call me a monster now?!

I’m forgotten, no one knows me anymore… So what, I’m not that little girl anymore, but people grow up.. Why won’t you accept me?! So what I gaved up on god, know what.. The devil also, no such thing, fiction some idiot made….. But because of all this, you all forget who I am!!!!

I’m a goth chick, trapped to live in this world… So what?! I’m just a person, just like you!! Yet you treat me like shit and act like you forgot me… Oh I forgot, you did forget who I am… So? Fuck off, don’t talk to me!!

Ow!! It hurts!! Now I see I am alive, but now it hurts even more.. Why forget me? Why do I have to be the forgotten one.. So what, fuck it.. Ow, there goes the pain again.. So what, you don’t care, you don’t even know me!!! You don’t know I’m crying…… You don’t know I’m in pain…. But do you care?!

I’m all alone… These paraniod feelings… Their back to haunt me!!! I’m forgotten, you don’t even know me!! What, you wanna dim my pain? Fuck you!!! Like you said, I’m forgotten, know one knows me…. So fuck off!!! You made it like this, so leave me alone… No one knows me!!!!! I’m forgotten, even to myself….. The feel the shadows call my name, whispering…. These paraniod thoughts again… Am I dieing? So much blood, I’m forgotten…. No one knows me, they won’t know I’m gone… So then the darkness devours me….. Making me more forgotten, see, no one knows me…. They didn’t even know I was here…. So much pain… So alone……… I’m forgotten, no one knows me…. Not even myself……………..

I miss HIM…

I guess I should update this thing… Nothing new is really happening

I miss my dad though, it is especially hard on my burfday…….
He was just the greatest Dad that ever lived!!
He was to me.
As far as daughters and fathers go we were very close.
I miss my Dad.
Sometimes when I close my eyes I can hear his voice.
and sometimes I can actually see him .
It’s funny but everytime I go to computer shop
I think of my Dad.
Spent many an hour waiting in those little waiting rooms
for him to get off work.
Remember the picnics and the vacations

The barbques and the ikan bakar
the way he’d come and check on
my sister and I to see if we had soda to drink.
All the little things he could do
Like he made nasi goreng with sambal tumis on them
Oh I remember his laugh so well!!
My Dad would toss quarters on the ground
when we were not looking
then he’d say what is that ?
We being kids that are curious
Of coarse bent down every time
and screamed with glee!
Its a quarter Dad !!!!!!
He just smiled and say
We’ll you must be lucky today !!
My Dad did all the things lots of fathers do
Made hari raya arts card
Would tell us all about the big rabbit he saw hopping away.
Said he saw a big tiger come threw our doors house at night.
He made my childhood the best any kid could ever ask for!!
What a good man he was too
never had much in material things
but alway’s said he was the richest man on earth
because he had children that loved him.
I miss him so much .
He will alway’s be with me no matter where I go.
He was a man to those who only knew him
He was a friend who you could rely on
To my mother he was her sunshine and her life
To me he was MY DAD
God Bless You Dad !!!
I LOve YOU !!

p/s:
Thank you to all who called dad at home to cheer him up, and to those who visited him at home and in the hospitals to express their love and support. That was such a blessing to him and was also very comforting.

Even as mom stood by his side, you also lifted her in prayer and strengthened her with words of comfort and tenderness. You will forever be greatly appreciated and in the family’s thoughts, hearts and prayers.

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One I reached the hospital, I got out of the bilik pelawat and ran into the ICU room. I couldn’t get to my dad fast enough. I saw my auntie behind Anes and ran to her. Her face was overshadowed in agony. My auntie tried pushing me away from the table n sudenlly cuddle me n my sister. “No, Kakak don’t..jgn wat camnie depan dia tak baik cian kat babah..sedekah al-Fathihah byk2″ was all she said to me. I pushed past her and saw the gray mask of death enfold my gentle and peaceful dad. I was shocked to see my dad silent in death. I cried softly “No, no, babah don’t leave me, please don’t go.” Seeing my dad in such silence was torture for me. He always laughed! He always smiled. He just couldn’t be gone. One minute his black eyes were laughing, the next they were closed forever…My family and I would sit by his bedside, always keep praying semoga roh babah dicucuri rahmat n ditempatkn org2 beriman..Ameen.

Wednesday, May 25, 2005